Thursday, February 16, 2012

February 16

Today would have marked my mother's 61st birthday.

She's been gone almost three years. It will be three years on May 13th. The day before my son's 8th birthday.

I keep waiting for the sharp stab of pain to disappear. For the tears to stop coming to my eyes when I think of her. To stop cursing everything in sight from taking her far, far too early. For knowing just how damn much she is missing.

And I keep on waiting.


  1. Oh Nikki, I can't imagine how you are feeling. Sending hugs your way.

  2. I remember when you lost her and reliving the pain of losing my own mother. I didn't realize though just how young she was...I'm so sorry. I am her age now and just became a grandmother..I can't imagine life ending when it is so glorious. Take care Nikki, it's ok to feel those things, I still do and it's been 16years.

  3. I am sorry!

    My aunt past away 4 years ago from breast cancer and my cousin said the anniversary of her death still hurts. I think it is tough to lose a mother!