Today would have marked my mother's 61st birthday.
She's been gone almost three years. It will be three years on May 13th. The day before my son's 8th birthday.
I keep waiting for the sharp stab of pain to disappear. For the tears to stop coming to my eyes when I think of her. To stop cursing everything in sight from taking her far, far too early. For knowing just how damn much she is missing.
And I keep on waiting.
Oh Nikki, I can't imagine how you are feeling. Sending hugs your way.
ReplyDeleteI remember when you lost her and reliving the pain of losing my own mother. I didn't realize though just how young she was...I'm so sorry. I am her age now and just became a grandmother..I can't imagine life ending when it is so glorious. Take care Nikki, it's ok to feel those things, I still do and it's been 16years.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry!
ReplyDeleteMy aunt past away 4 years ago from breast cancer and my cousin said the anniversary of her death still hurts. I think it is tough to lose a mother!